Giving birth to my Twin Boys

 

I was uncomfortable that night before i started bleeding severely.I couldn’t find a good spot to sleep at so i tried sleeping in the couch.It worked.I woke up at 5am that morning having to go pee.After i wiped,i saw a little bit of blood on the tissue i used.I wiped again to check,more blood.I wiped again to make sure,more blood until it started dripping like crazy.The toilet bowl won’t even flush that time since i used like the whole roll of tissue.I was so nervous.Negative thoughts in my head started making me panic.Fortunately my husband was home.I told him we have got to go to the hospital.We rushed to the labor and delivery.Bam! I was 3cm dilated.The bleeding never stop and it gets worse when i would have to get up and use the restroom.I was admitted in the hospital for 4 days before i had my babies.Steroid shots,IV’s,Antibiotics,baby monitors with sticky gels on my belly,sleepless nights and stress are just few things i remember i hated.I was on magnesium drip for 2 days to help keep them in longer,and that drip made me feel like crap the whole time.As soon as they stopped it,i was finally sleeping good,little did i know i was having continuous contractions while i was asleep,my husband was watching the monitor.I woke up,nurse and doctor came and checked me,i was only 4cm dilated but right before they were going to leave my room,my water broke,emergency c section it is! It was unexplainable feeling knowing they were about to pop out! They just couldn’t wait any longer;they were so ready to be on mommy’s and daddy’s arms i guess haha Everything went so fast.Surgery was done quickly and i remember my boys both had different teams of nurses to take care of them.It was an amazing feeling when i heard them cry,I couldn’t help but cry too,for happiness.I was so happy,but i couldn’t hold them and didn’t have any skin to skin touch for a while,they showed me both of them for like 5 seconds each and they were sent to the NICU.My recovery was quick,i was walking by the hospital hallway the same day i had my surgery and spent few days in the hospital.Now,THIS IS THE HARDEST PART—
Going home without my babies.It was heartbreaking to leave the hospital without them.We visited them 3x a day to feed them and check on them,sometimes at night too! I cried every single time we drove home.Such a horrible feeling.They were 34 weekers premies,i call them my little fighters.Looking at all the tubes and cords and monitors in their bodies while we were there was so painful to me,and knowing they draw blood almost everyday felt like somebody was trying to tear my heart off in pieces.They were so tiny.Being a NICU parent was very challenging.
This is Zayn,5.1lbs.

This is Zander.He was 4.1lbs

I still cry whenever i see their pictures or videos when they all had those in their bodies.
They were breathing on their own when they came out,but the Dr.wanted to put them on oxygen for few days just to help them breathe.They were on feeding tubes for a week too,until they learned how to suck.I was breastfeeding them.One of the hardest part was pumping,for two! I was always exhausted.It was like never ending routine i had for a while and im glad i did! Because now,my breastmilk is slowing down and i wish i continued doing how i was doing.
12 days after,they finally came home.They were on 3 hr schedule of in between feedings,it was rough,very hard,but we did it.They are now almost 8 weeks,eating 4oz every 4-5 hrs.

It’s still hard but our bodies have gotten used to it.One smile and every tiredness of my body is gone! We got our hands full but oh my goodness I wouldn’t have them any other way! Two lovely boys entered our lives and our world is completely changed.I love them so much and if i have to do it all over again,i would.Twice the love,twice the fun.So if you are a parent of multiples too,i salute you.We are twice blessed.WE GOT THIS!

Being Pregnant -with TWINS!

                                             “ZAYN and ZANDER”

They said you are more likely to become pregnant with twins naturally when you are in your 30’s and 40’s.Well,i’m 23.I think mine is genetic tho, from my dad’s side.My aunt and Uncle are twins.My aunt had twins but unfortunately the other one didn’t make it.My cousin has twins too.But heck!I wasn’t expecting to have twins!

*   THE + SIGN x3!

I was always regular with my period.For some reason, that time I was not aware that I was already 5 days late.Three days before, this girl was busy gardening, mowing and transferring some dirt to the vegetable garden, doing heavy work in the middle of the heat.That night I had dark brown spotting, well for me that means 1st day of period has begun.The next day I went to Baton Rouge with my sis in law to visit her family.I knew something was wrong with me, I didn’t have energy, i thought I was getting sick! One afternoon after playing with the kids,i was kinda off, so I took a nap,i was feeling so tired.I woke up and realized I still wasn’t bleeding.The next day, it started again, but it stopped before we headed back home.So,as soon as I got home I bought a PT,and then i took a nap.

TADAAAAAAAAA!!! positive!

I was so happy but I wasn’t smiling! So shocked! I didn’t know what to do! My face didn’t even know what reaction it should  make!LOL – mixed emotions…I was messaging my husband that time, he called right away of course! (he was at work) Our prayer has been answered! I tried to calm myself down,i was sweating.I knew I still have 2 more pregnancy test to try, just to make sure, you know?We did not tell anyone yet but my sis in law,i had to send her pic and asked her if I was reading it right hahaha

2nd test,+!     3rd test,+!

 

So it’s confirmed! I’M PREGNANT!!! we told our parents the next day, they were all super excited!

  • First Dr. appointment

1st time parents to be, of course we were beyond excited to find out how the baby was doing.We were praying so hard to find a healthy baby heartbeat.

‘Well,yall’s babies are looking good and healthy” dr.said. In my mind i was like,”did she just said BABIES??? I looked at my husband.

“You’re having TWINS! ” dr.said.I looked at my husband again, and oooooh, his face was red with his mouth and eyes are wide open! Im sure I did the same thing.I started shaking so I had to scream…”OH MY GOD,TWINS??? ARE YOU SERIOUS??? (Josh had to tell me to calm down haha!) Well.i was so shocked! He was supposed to video the whole thing too but when he heard babies he forgot about the world for a minute. He was not talking the whole time he was driving home, it almost made me feel like he wasn’t happy.Of course he is! He is pumped but he’s in shock! It didn’t sink in  until after few weeks! We are for sure twice blessed!                  

We found out we were having twin boys at 15 weeks! Another shocking moment! We still can’t believe we are having twins…and twin boys, right now.But we are beyond excited! We cannot wait to meet them!

 

* CRAVINGS

Hungry all the time x2! Few weeks before we found out I was preggo,i ate a lot of crawfish like almost everyday.I would eat like 5-10 lbs.If we were to count how many crawfish I ate this year, it would be enough to fill a crawfish pond.Second thing I remember craving for was cucumber on a hot and spicy vinegar.I ate some strawberries and green grapes at night too.I went back to the Philippines for my birthday this year, but it really was to satisfy my cravings.Of course i ate my fave fruits,veggies,snacks,street food.I craved for green, really sour mangoes.I sure started showing after my vacation back home.The past few weeks i have been eating a lot of waffles, milk chocolates, hot chocolate drink, and beef tips where I go to “Granny’s Family Restaurant” for that, and because buffet is life! Most of all i love rice.The more rice, the better!

* SMELL SENSITIVITY

Not really concern about this one.The only thing that bothered me a lot was my dog! I hated her smell.I would give her a bath and I could still smell her like a rotten egg or something.I threw up a lot.I was so mean to her too,didn’t wanna see her,i didn’t wanna hear her, didn’t wanna be around her! Awe! Poor dog,i know right!That was my 2nd month of pregnancy I think.Everything else smells normal.

So far, right now, the babies are doing good.I had to get 2 steroid shots last week tho for them to stay in longer since I was already 1cm dilated.Im only 29 weeks right now and my belly looks like 35 to me.It has been a hard work trying to get outta bed and even just a little bit of walking takes my breath away.Im being put to bedrest, was told not to do dishes, no laundry, no cleaning, no lifting..oh,not fun at all…but anything for my boys!

*  THOUGHTS

I’m already in love with them.Feeling them move everyday makes me feel like I’m the most blessed mom to be in the world.Sometimes it really feels weird and funny when they both move at the same time.We are so ready to meet them.I remember those times when I used to watch twin videos online,i love watching #itsjudytime.

I always prayed for twins.I always wanted to have twin girls.But Im so blessed that God gave us twin boys.There’s lots of people that can’t have babies or lost babies, and we were given 2?We are forever grateful.I remember when a friend of mine posted something on Facebook about what their preacher told her.”YES,NO,or WAIT”.They have been trying for yeeeears…dr.told her they can’t have babies anymore but see, now she is pregnant.If you’re one of the women who’s been trying for awhile too, don’t lose hope.God knows what’s best for you.His plans will take you to your journey, and happiness will follow.

So,this is all for today, i have a lot of things I still want to share but I will write them again on my next blog.If you have questions, advice, please comment below.Please like and share this post too.I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I did writing it.Have a wonderful day and GOD BLESS!