Giving birth to my Twin Boys


I was uncomfortable that night before i started bleeding severely.I couldn’t find a good spot to sleep at so i tried sleeping in the couch.It worked.I woke up at 5am that morning having to go pee.After i wiped,i saw a little bit of blood on the tissue i used.I wiped again to check,more blood.I wiped again to make sure,more blood until it started dripping like crazy.The toilet bowl won’t even flush that time since i used like the whole roll of tissue.I was so nervous.Negative thoughts in my head started making me panic.Fortunately my husband was home.I told him we have got to go to the hospital.We rushed to the labor and delivery.Bam! I was 3cm dilated.The bleeding never stop and it gets worse when i would have to get up and use the restroom.I was admitted in the hospital for 4 days before i had my babies.Steroid shots,IV’s,Antibiotics,baby monitors with sticky gels on my belly,sleepless nights and stress are just few things i remember i hated.I was on magnesium drip for 2 days to help keep them in longer,and that drip made me feel like crap the whole time.As soon as they stopped it,i was finally sleeping good,little did i know i was having continuous contractions while i was asleep,my husband was watching the monitor.I woke up,nurse and doctor came and checked me,i was only 4cm dilated but right before they were going to leave my room,my water broke,emergency c section it is! It was unexplainable feeling knowing they were about to pop out! They just couldn’t wait any longer;they were so ready to be on mommy’s and daddy’s arms i guess haha Everything went so fast.Surgery was done quickly and i remember my boys both had different teams of nurses to take care of them.It was an amazing feeling when i heard them cry,I couldn’t help but cry too,for happiness.I was so happy,but i couldn’t hold them and didn’t have any skin to skin touch for a while,they showed me both of them for like 5 seconds each and they were sent to the NICU.My recovery was quick,i was walking by the hospital hallway the same day i had my surgery and spent few days in the hospital.Now,THIS IS THE HARDEST PART—
Going home without my babies.It was heartbreaking to leave the hospital without them.We visited them 3x a day to feed them and check on them,sometimes at night too! I cried every single time we drove home.Such a horrible feeling.They were 34 weekers premies,i call them my little fighters.Looking at all the tubes and cords and monitors in their bodies while we were there was so painful to me,and knowing they draw blood almost everyday felt like somebody was trying to tear my heart off in pieces.They were so tiny.Being a NICU parent was very challenging.
This is Zayn,5.1lbs.

This is Zander.He was 4.1lbs

I still cry whenever i see their pictures or videos when they all had those in their bodies.
They were breathing on their own when they came out,but the Dr.wanted to put them on oxygen for few days just to help them breathe.They were on feeding tubes for a week too,until they learned how to suck.I was breastfeeding them.One of the hardest part was pumping,for two! I was always exhausted.It was like never ending routine i had for a while and im glad i did! Because now,my breastmilk is slowing down and i wish i continued doing how i was doing.
12 days after,they finally came home.They were on 3 hr schedule of in between feedings,it was rough,very hard,but we did it.They are now almost 8 weeks,eating 4oz every 4-5 hrs.

It’s still hard but our bodies have gotten used to it.One smile and every tiredness of my body is gone! We got our hands full but oh my goodness I wouldn’t have them any other way! Two lovely boys entered our lives and our world is completely changed.I love them so much and if i have to do it all over again,i would.Twice the love,twice the fun.So if you are a parent of multiples too,i salute you.We are twice blessed.WE GOT THIS!

Living from the Philippines to the United States


                                                           –Henry Rollins

I totally agree with that.This isn’t my 1st time to be out of my country, i worked in Korea for a year, which I think was a lot easier to adjust to than I have now in the US.Thank goodness the technology has brought the world ways to communicate with your love ones,or else,  it would be a whole lot of emotional stress.I remember the strange feeling I had when I was about to leave my country for the 1st time,i was excited but at the same time I was sad and nervous.I had to leave to get a job and support my family;that has always been my promise to myself.Growing up with my 6 siblings, and my parents was one of the best things that I’ve ever experienced in my life, but,it was the most challenging and hardest part of our lives, it wasn’t easy, life was so hard on us.We  were happy but we barely had anything.Everything I’ve gone through taught me how to live.After working in Korea,i achieved some of my main goals.For more than 5 years, probably around 8 years, we didn’t have electricity.After Korea,everything has gotten better.We finally have electricity,we have a decent tv, fans,a good size fridge, and a better looking family house and less stress, aha!my parents doesn’t fight that much anymore, you know, financial situations sometimes leads to unnecessary arguments.

Living in the Philippines is cheap, it really is!and I learned about that when I moved here.The Philippines have a high rate on tourism, not just because it’s cheap but you will love the places!

Since the cost of living is cheap,salary is cheap too.You can make $6/day (min.wage) in the provinces, as I can remember, and like $10/day in the city.It depends on what kind of job you have, your educational attainment, sometimes what/which school you went to, and this is why parents would always tell us to study hard so we can get a better job in the future and unfortunately,there’s more high school graduates than college, and a lot of people didn’t even step in school or discontinued school because of financial problems, there’s not a lot of opportunities in the Philippines.Here comes the reason why a lot of Filipinos would go work overseas for years to support their family and for them to be able to send their kids to school especially college, and whenever they graduate, the 1st thing they have to do is to give back,i mean take care of their parents/families.This is what I love about us Filipinos,very family oriented.

I didn’t make it to college.I felt so disappointed  for awhile because I couldn’t do anything, we couldn’t afford it, and again,opportunities aren’t as big as it is in the US.We don’t have student loans.I’ve always worked right after I graduated high school and Im glad I did, because if I didn’t I wouldn’t be this strong and independent person that I am right now.If you were to leave me on an island or somewhere alone,i would know how to live.I know education is very important, it’s the only treasure no one can steal from you.Now, i just wanna be happy, as long as I’m kind to people,i’m good.Your educational attainment isn’t going to be a requirement in heaven, right? But of course I would still go to school if I’ll have the opportunity.This time, all my heart wants is to have my own family, a happy family.I haven’t work since I got here,but I had few hobbies I did just to have something to do like making bows and selling them on etsy,or sometimes on consignment events.

I was gonna start wedding film business, but I stopped buying gears because we found out I was pregnant.We know we have to be financially ready since we are having twins!yay!so blessed! Raising a child in the US is expensive compared to the Philippines.In here, everybody needs to have insurance, in the Philippines,hmmm I don’t even know someone that has one, but I know we have health card.Technology is way too advanced in the US tho.


Everything is huge in the US! LOL  From vegetables, to fruits, to meals! I remember the 1st time we bought my husband a large drink from a drive thru in the Phils.He said “I thought you ordered a large drink?” Well,that’s our large here hahaha it was like a small drink from here.A meal here is enough to feed 2-3 people back home.Let’s talk about rice! You know the struggle is real! there are few restaurants around who serves Rice,and it’s frustrating! I lost so much weight my 1st few months here,i was so skinny by the time we got married, we had to get my wedding dress altered!Rice is life to us Filipinos! So glad I’m finally adjusted with food.


*Just like wherever you go,there are good people, and the people you just “cannot” trust!I love socializing with people that has same interests as me.

*People here likes to be tan, they use a lot of tanning products like tanning beds, tanning lotions, creams,sprays or just stay under the sun for hours.We,Filipinos,likes to be lighter, and we use a lot of whitening products,and if you’d go to the Philippines,you see a lot of people that uses umbrellas to protect our skin from the sun.I wanted to use umbrella here before too, but I don’t want people to look at me weird LOL


In the Philippines,usually,the wives has to stay home to take care of the house or kids while the husband works.In here, most people are always busy working.I see both sides advantages and disadvantages.


If you’re from Louisiana or have lived in Louisiana before, you know how it is lol Weather is so weird.You’ll be surprise.It would be cold in the morning, be really hot in the afternoon and it would rain at night.It gets cold in the winter,reaaaaly cold! you will never see me fashionable by this time of the year!jeans,boots,jackets,sweaters.It’s not very bad tho, i’m just so happy we have a heater!   I like spring time, where I can start gardening; i love flowers! I love the fall too, but not when the leaves fall off the trees!if you’re Filipino,you know what I’m talking about!We take care of them everyday in the Philippines,in here it’s bad.Well,who would go outside and rake and burn them when it’s cold anyway?and snakes are scary! they are my no.1 fear! If I’d step on one i would die from a heart attack and not from  a snake bite haha



MUDRIDING with my husband! I was scared, but I learned to love it!



I remember I used to go fishing with my dad, but this time we use a boat!lol The only reason why I like to go fishing here is because there’s no live fish you can buy around.I like to cook fresh fresh!


It’s really boring! but when I see a deer I get so excited! It makes me sad tho having to shoot the biggest one when its family is around.Am I weird? LOL I still like beef and pork better than deer meat. Hmmm im not a fan!We don’t have deers in the Philippines,only in the Zoos! I enjoy doing it tho with my husband,he lets me take a nap in the deer stand and he keeps it warm with a heater hahaha I love him so much!

I’m sure there’s a lot more differences I can share, but I will tell you again guys later on as I learn more.I’ll see you again on my next article! Thank you for taking time to read my 3rd blog.If you have questions and suggestions for my next blog, feel free to leave a comment.Please share my blog, sharing is caring! Have a wonderful day,God Bless you!


Being Pregnant -with TWINS!

                                             “ZAYN and ZANDER”

They said you are more likely to become pregnant with twins naturally when you are in your 30’s and 40’s.Well,i’m 23.I think mine is genetic tho, from my dad’s side.My aunt and Uncle are twins.My aunt had twins but unfortunately the other one didn’t make it.My cousin has twins too.But heck!I wasn’t expecting to have twins!

*   THE + SIGN x3!

I was always regular with my period.For some reason, that time I was not aware that I was already 5 days late.Three days before, this girl was busy gardening, mowing and transferring some dirt to the vegetable garden, doing heavy work in the middle of the heat.That night I had dark brown spotting, well for me that means 1st day of period has begun.The next day I went to Baton Rouge with my sis in law to visit her family.I knew something was wrong with me, I didn’t have energy, i thought I was getting sick! One afternoon after playing with the kids,i was kinda off, so I took a nap,i was feeling so tired.I woke up and realized I still wasn’t bleeding.The next day, it started again, but it stopped before we headed back home.So,as soon as I got home I bought a PT,and then i took a nap.

TADAAAAAAAAA!!! positive!

I was so happy but I wasn’t smiling! So shocked! I didn’t know what to do! My face didn’t even know what reaction it should  make!LOL – mixed emotions…I was messaging my husband that time, he called right away of course! (he was at work) Our prayer has been answered! I tried to calm myself down,i was sweating.I knew I still have 2 more pregnancy test to try, just to make sure, you know?We did not tell anyone yet but my sis in law,i had to send her pic and asked her if I was reading it right hahaha

2nd test,+!     3rd test,+!


So it’s confirmed! I’M PREGNANT!!! we told our parents the next day, they were all super excited!

  • First Dr. appointment

1st time parents to be, of course we were beyond excited to find out how the baby was doing.We were praying so hard to find a healthy baby heartbeat.

‘Well,yall’s babies are looking good and healthy” dr.said. In my mind i was like,”did she just said BABIES??? I looked at my husband.

“You’re having TWINS! ” dr.said.I looked at my husband again, and oooooh, his face was red with his mouth and eyes are wide open! Im sure I did the same thing.I started shaking so I had to scream…”OH MY GOD,TWINS??? ARE YOU SERIOUS??? (Josh had to tell me to calm down haha!) Well.i was so shocked! He was supposed to video the whole thing too but when he heard babies he forgot about the world for a minute. He was not talking the whole time he was driving home, it almost made me feel like he wasn’t happy.Of course he is! He is pumped but he’s in shock! It didn’t sink in  until after few weeks! We are for sure twice blessed!                  

We found out we were having twin boys at 15 weeks! Another shocking moment! We still can’t believe we are having twins…and twin boys, right now.But we are beyond excited! We cannot wait to meet them!



Hungry all the time x2! Few weeks before we found out I was preggo,i ate a lot of crawfish like almost everyday.I would eat like 5-10 lbs.If we were to count how many crawfish I ate this year, it would be enough to fill a crawfish pond.Second thing I remember craving for was cucumber on a hot and spicy vinegar.I ate some strawberries and green grapes at night too.I went back to the Philippines for my birthday this year, but it really was to satisfy my cravings.Of course i ate my fave fruits,veggies,snacks,street food.I craved for green, really sour mangoes.I sure started showing after my vacation back home.The past few weeks i have been eating a lot of waffles, milk chocolates, hot chocolate drink, and beef tips where I go to “Granny’s Family Restaurant” for that, and because buffet is life! Most of all i love rice.The more rice, the better!


Not really concern about this one.The only thing that bothered me a lot was my dog! I hated her smell.I would give her a bath and I could still smell her like a rotten egg or something.I threw up a lot.I was so mean to her too,didn’t wanna see her,i didn’t wanna hear her, didn’t wanna be around her! Awe! Poor dog,i know right!That was my 2nd month of pregnancy I think.Everything else smells normal.

So far, right now, the babies are doing good.I had to get 2 steroid shots last week tho for them to stay in longer since I was already 1cm dilated.Im only 29 weeks right now and my belly looks like 35 to me.It has been a hard work trying to get outta bed and even just a little bit of walking takes my breath away.Im being put to bedrest, was told not to do dishes, no laundry, no cleaning, no lifting..oh,not fun at all…but anything for my boys!


I’m already in love with them.Feeling them move everyday makes me feel like I’m the most blessed mom to be in the world.Sometimes it really feels weird and funny when they both move at the same time.We are so ready to meet them.I remember those times when I used to watch twin videos online,i love watching #itsjudytime.

I always prayed for twins.I always wanted to have twin girls.But Im so blessed that God gave us twin boys.There’s lots of people that can’t have babies or lost babies, and we were given 2?We are forever grateful.I remember when a friend of mine posted something on Facebook about what their preacher told her.”YES,NO,or WAIT”.They have been trying for yeeeears…dr.told her they can’t have babies anymore but see, now she is pregnant.If you’re one of the women who’s been trying for awhile too, don’t lose hope.God knows what’s best for you.His plans will take you to your journey, and happiness will follow.

So,this is all for today, i have a lot of things I still want to share but I will write them again on my next blog.If you have questions, advice, please comment below.Please like and share this post too.I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I did writing it.Have a wonderful day and GOD BLESS!